Thanks to everyone for the support. I am still in shock at my behavior. I've had a successful run of managing my Biploar for nearly twenty years; however, in the past two years I've had multiple rapid cycling episodes. My concern is that I will literally exhaust my healthcare providers with my constant need for treatment and care. ( I know that I'm extremely tired of dealing with it.) Effectively managing Bipolar becomes very expensive, very quickly.

My son and DIL are as understanding as they can be at this time. This dissociative thing must be rather scary for them as well. My other young adult "kids" are very worried, yet, also very supportive.

Again, thanks for your support.

CR