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Old Aug 18, 2011, 06:18 PM
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I think it was great that you attended the meeting and like the idea of you trying it just a few more times. Patrick Carnes has written a great book called, "Sexual Anorexia"(I think - if not, just google his name online) - I read it through 2x a few years back because I, too, am a sexual anorexic. I agree that the bar scene might not be the best place for you, but joining a hobby group might be fun. I went online and checkout out a website called Meetup.com - you can type in any type of interest you have and see if other people near you have the same interests. It is not a dating site. Please don't give up on the support group just yet - I know it is hard but sometimes, being with people who understand a little bit of what you may be going through can be very healing. I see my therapist 3x a week right now and even though it may seem like a lot, it has saved my life many times. I have learned to be more authentic, worked on my fear/shame around issues of sex/intimacy/men, learned that there is nothing "wrong" with me, had the caring support of my therapist(she is also a CSA survivor), and learned that my sexual feelings are not bad or weird. It has been so healing to be able to work through these issues with someone I really trust.
I hope that as you increase the number of sessions with your therapist, you begin to see how wonderful you really are. I have a pretty strong faith and I do believe in God. I know that I will continue to find healing because I want that for myself. I think you will continue to find healing because you also want that for yourself. I am so sorry about what you had to go through as a child but am glad you found this forum because now you know you are not alone(now I know this, too - you are the first sexual anorexic I have ever spoken to and I am so glad you had the courage to be so honest!). Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!