I know I've started a thread along this same topic recently, but now that it's becoming serious, I thought it couldn't hurt to ask again.
Last time in session, we ended the hour talking about memories that I need to process in order to let the healing (or whatever it is) take place. I'll just start out by asking this...since I have no history with major trauma, will EMDR even work for me? My therapist said that doesn't matter how intense the traumatic situations were, that it's the fact that they're still impacting me that's the problem. I guess I don't know how to describe these situations. There are the obvious ones - the bullying in middle school. That's probably what we'll start working with first. But it's the little ones that are affecting me the most. Like the song I heard playing on the receptionist's radio as I said goodbye to the therapist that I'd worked with for two years. Or recalling the way I felt in 8th grade when my anxiety was at its worst. Things like that, I don't even know if you'd call them traumatic. Memories such as these have made it hard to move on because I constantly tend to compare my current emotional state to that of my past - that in the memories. This comparison has made getting better impossible because I can't stop it. I don't know if this makes sense. Please tell me if it doesn't and I'll try to clarify as best I can. T says that reprocessing these things will help me let go of them, leaving the past behind me and working harder toward improving in the future. What do you think?
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