Ok, so I have bronchittis...so much fun! And so I missed all my classes on Thur. First time that I missed my classes, except for math, and the ones I missed were because of bad weather, and not wanting to drive home in snow and ice in the dark. Anyway, well I missed 2 tests and a quiz. And I would have gone, but I knew that I wouldn't do good on any of them because I felt so bad. Anyway, I can't make up my math test, and the homework that I spent hours on for that class, won't be accepted...and I have to make up my biology test, but I'm not sure when, and it will be harder than the first one, and my friend took the first one and she said that it was really hard. Anyway, I mean here I am, in college, I have a job, I am trying really hard and I am starting to get so stressed out. I know that I should just relax. I know that I can do this, I mean I know I can, but still and yet, I'm just ready to quit, almost. But I won't let myself do that.

On another note, I finally saw my therapist on wed. I would barely talk to her, because I was so mad about her cancelling on me twice. She even said that she almost had to cancel on me again because another patient of her's had oded. *sigh* She basically wrote off how mad I was at her for not getting me in sooner. Saying that no one ever said it was a crisis. I don't know if it was or not, and I told her that knowing I was going to see her was what had been keeping me going...I just don't know. I'm not sure if I need a new therapist or what. I mean I really like this one, but I think maybe I have outgrown her, it just doesn't feel like she really cares anymore. Although, I don't feel like anyone cares anymore, and I just am so sick of everything, everyone. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there forever, would make things so much easier. *sigh* I guess I just don't know....

Thanks for letting me ramble...

Later...~Me~

[b]<font color=blue> I can't take this anymore and I'm almost pretty sure that I've been here before. I can't take this any longer I won't heal until I'm stronger. Strong enough to not be afraid --Oleander[b]<font color=blue>