Thank you Omers and Secretum :-)

Yeah I work full time that sort of gets me sometimes with stuff- but i have medical stuff and I have tried my best with paying them monthly and some even reduced the amount due to they saw how much I made and weather or the insurance paid a little or a lot.

I know my boyfriend always tells me that he is here- and that we are together, and that he rather have me take some money from him than have things go spiringly down.

I talked to him about getting a second job- he does not like the idea due to I already get so stressed and pour my self into my current job and I work nights and sometimes don't get enough sleep- like today... I think it would be easy in a way to get a morning job for a few days out of the week - something easy... and then go to sleep and then come to my night full time job- it is usually quiet and all... IDK though-

Yeah I was thinking maybe I could sell the bears I make (I make stuffed animals from yarn and a knitting board sometimes) It does help with stress- but then it does cost to do.. and I will behonest I have gotten better but IDK- I know ppl and friends say they are cute but IDK- i dont think they are good enough to sell (lol).

It will be ok- I always figure numbers some how--- O.o

Sorry for the rant-

But it is sad that people in poorer countries dont have things like we do-- yet I complain- Makes me feel bad and reminds me it could be worse.