I know exactly how you feel, you want to be independent yet you find that you are not able to do everything on your own. The fact that you stress about it shows that you are a mature adult that is trying to do the best she can, there is nothing wrong in letting your boyfriend help you out - that is what relationships are all about. When you cook him dinner wouldn't it hurt your feelings if he left $5 on the table for his share? I am sure that he feels that you are not being fair to him by not allowing him to help out, like he said, he uses the products as well. Plus the upside is that you will have a bit of your stress relieved and will in turn be better company! It's a win-win. Remember, how you feel inside makes all the difference in the world and when you look good, you feel good and that is what you should be striving for. It's not like you bought cigarettes or drugs. Don't be so hard on yourself!