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What you are describing here is PTSD symptoms, that is what happens. It is all about doubt and anxiety and flashbacks and emotions coming out that can be overwhelming and hard to control and confusing. It can ease up a little and then for what seems no reason hit you again with awful feelings.

You need to bring this up with your therapist because he should know you have PTSD and he needs to help you with it.

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