((((((skysblue))))))

You are not difficult or bad!! Your T will definitely not want to get rid of you. I know it doesn't look like it to you, but as an outsider I think your actions and words are progress, not the opposite.

It reminds me of when I scribbled all over my T's design on the drawing paper. I told her I wanted to get rid of it. I rarely display anger in therapy; probably never did before. Therapy is a place to show our feelings, not to intellectualize. I'm guilty of wanting to do the latter, so I know how it is.

You're being real with your feelings, and that's what Ts want from us.