Thank you everyone. I keep hearing to stop being so hard on myself even as a kid. It's hard (lol). Dollar stores & thrift stores (and should be every where!) i love but i didn't want to wait up the other day for it to open, sorry i was tired after work (graveyard) but i regret it now.my budget gets me so upset with my figures i sometimes think of going to talk to some one but idk how they can help till after the year (student loan will be done yay). Queen you made me smile, it's crazy how stuff is now days i'm 24 & remember when gas was $1.20 lol i just don't understan stuff. Like my sent is going up a $100 and no one is getting raises lol bs i say but it'll be ok. Use everything sparingly Lmao and yep i feel fortunate that i'm able to have things for cleaning, i just wish i wouldn't be so stressed about it i hope no one has to but Blah it's how it is i will have to check out the suggestion at a pc. thank you all i'm sorry if i 4got a reply on someone but i do appreciate it all on reply and felling it i'm not alone and thanks all for the suggestions! I will just need to sit down again and figure things out with my boyfriend he always tells me it works out in the end some how:-) i doubt it at times but i need to believe in it :-)