Yes, I understand what you've said. I absolutely know the dangers of them bursting on their own. That had happened a few years ago and almost ruined my life.

But here I am employing old tactics of trying to ignore and repress my feelings, not knowing how and/or fearful of expressing them appropriately and then WHAM! - there they go!! Unleashed and out of control.

I guess I have to be grateful for the trigger of the light coming on because that trigger allowed the leak to happen and without that I still wouldn't have been conscious of how deeply upset I am.