thank you so much for your response. i wish it were so and there was not even DID. while i have no knowledge of younger parts of me by myself, there is evidence not only of childlike things, but also verification from family members and t. I guess the evidence has always been there, i just didn't know that it wasn't normal. there are apparently some parts that do things from simply sitting in a closet, unable to speak... to lashing out. from giggling about a specific color they like to crying uncontrollably.

i guess my problem is my lack of knowledge in how to do things myself? you know, i don't actually know what i am realizing. maybe it has nothing to do with younger parts of myself. maybe it has to do with the fact that I don't know how to take time for myself, how to take care of myself in ways that not only do not make things more harmful, but actually make things better. I don't know what I am realizing. i just know i am unable to do these things. it might have something to do with younger parts though too. i am so confused.

i appreciate your views. i'm working on soothing the inner children in hopes that i can get to know them and to work together on pains as well as joys according to mine and t's goals.