i've been thinking lately that what could really be the cause of my depressed mood and inability to focus on career,and the best i have come up with is that may be i try desperately to have someone on whom i can depend emotionally. and when i (luckily/unluckily) meet someone who likes me and talks to me (im talking about opposite gender) i push them away because im scared of getting hurt again and also i think that im not good enough for any of them...and even doing so puts me into more despair..and im unable to concentrate on my work altogether which obviously piles up and gets me into deeper ****!

so what do u think, how do i keep my mind off the whole relationship thing? how to? any opinions and insight will be greatly appreciated. thanks a lot for reading.