Dear T,

I have a very bad kidney infection and am on medicine for it. I told my mate it was mild so she would not worry, but I am in a lot of pain. But I didn't want to go to the hospital! And I didn't tell the doctor about what alter Andy did last weekend with taking too many asprin. I am afraid that he hurt us too badly this time and I could have serious problems from it. I don't want to tell my mate at all! And I feel so badly that she is taking care of me when I feel like I deserve to suffer because I couldn't control that alter doing that. Every single joint in my body aches and I really hate that "I" did this to myself. Andy is very sorry and even cried a little about this. I hate DID and don't understand why I still can't remain out all the time if an alter gets too upset. It isn't fair that I have DID. :-( I just want to be normal..... Me