I'm really sorry you're in such a state... I'd be tempted to lie to them and pretend you're suicidal to get the help you need. You need to be careful, because of the kids, who I know are your first concern (I'm a Mum too, and my son was always my priority, no matter how crazy I was going.)

Tell them that you're confused, you can't think straight, that you are paranoid, hallucinating, can't tell what's real and what isn't, you're frightened you're going to have an accident since you're so anxious. At one point when I was ill I kept panicking when people approached me, and I'd run into the road, nearly got hit by a car several times.

I am not generally one for lying, but if the only way you can get help is to be suicidal, then you have to pretend. I'm sorry... but then they might put you in hosptial, which might make things worse. Is that what you want though?

Tell them what you just said, that you don't know where you are or who you are, depressed, confused, scared. And if you want to add that lie onto the end of it to get help, then do so. It's just not right you've had to wait so long. Some parts of the country are much better than others. Perhaps you should turn up at the hospital for help. I don't know...

One thing, I'm glad your Mum is there for you and your kids.

I'm really sorry, perhaps this is really bad advice, but it's all I can think of.