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Does anyone feel so apart from themselves that not only they don't recognize themselves, but there really isn't anything left.

When someone asks me a question about myself..."do you work?" "what would make you happy?" etc. .... I look like a deer caught in the headlights.

Basically it's been like this and progressively gotten worse as far as feeling apart from myself and not having an identity, but I feel like i'm barely holding onto anything.

I am really anxious over it and my t said last time she saw me that I was depressed. I said no that I just had no connection to myself or what I wanted out of life. I live only for my son and that's it really.

Now since I last spoke with her I'm wondering because now I am wanting to just sleep. More anxious and wanting to avoid everyone and even eating less then before...wanting to just fade away.

It just freaks me out to not have anything and others to start seeing it.

I'm babbling. Just was wondering if anyone else get's this.

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I TOTALLY get it. I was like that for several years, after I was completely destroyed in 1998-99. It's only been in tiny bits and pieces over the past 2 years that I've even remotely started to feel like there's anything I could call "me" other than a ghost of memories of a ghost haunting an exploded and shattered shell. The words you wrote to describe yourself are some of the exact same ones I used to describe myself from about 1998 to about 2004.