I've met people in my life that I considered perfect, with perfect lives, family, possessions, attitude, career, and so on so on, but after being with them for a long period of time, I discovered that they were desperately sad people who live in a fake world of perfection somebody had created for them...(parents, husband, wife...whatever).

Life may have been peaches and pie for you, but if you are here spilling out your guts saying that the possibility of you being imperfect....OCD, is impossible then your living in a fantasy. Welcome to the dark, sad, and nonexistent world your subconscious holds in you......DENIAL. All of us, in some way or another experiences some sort of denial......I guess that's one of humans imperfections.

Now I'm not the judgemental type folk, I believe everybody, I mean EVERYBODY, has some sort of good in them. Even criminals, people with OCD, drug addicts, thieves, sexual predators....so on so on. Does comparing a simple personal quality with a criminal make you bad......is a criminal bad?

You may have a perfect home, and a perfect life, but your obvisiouly hurting and screaming inside. Desperation can be deceiving.

I do not judge you for judging, I respect your honesty......but to say a emotional and mental disorder is bad.....so so horrible..is wrong.

I personally do not suffer from anything that I know of.....because unfortuantely life is imperfect for me, I'm poor with no insurance.......but if I did, I would be pretty upset that you'd classify me (my friends here), as criminals who don't pay their taxes.

I guess what you need...(my recommendation), is to look a little deeper, beyond perfect shutters, with the perfect perm, and the most loving parents in the world....and look at reality....because the world is real....your pain is real and is seeping out of your posts.

Your just like us. Welcome to the real world with real mistakes and imperfections.

I hope for your sake, and the sake of your family you seek the professional help you need. And I wish you luck with everything....because you need it.