I spent all day today making my home feel safe again, I lied in bed all morning til noon telling myself to open my eyes, saying OUTLOUD to look around there is NO ONE here but me, that i am totally safe and okay,I listened to upbeat music that i love, music has always saved me in one way or another, and I danced and sang around my beautiful home all day, I have made it POLICY to watch one or two funny shows and or movies a day and I am now able to lie down on my couch and not have any body memories or flashb acks or I do have them but they do not really bother me, I found myself saying ok this flashback is happening lets not give it any power keep watching your funny movie and it will go awy and IT DID yeahhhhh TY to everyone here for all your support, I can see the light now.