hey, butterfly. thanks for your post. i think you know the answer to your question of who you are sexually. waiting for an "answer" to fall from the sky and for a "cure" for fear and shame is unrealistic and is causing you to waste valuable time and your life. why postpone joy? the joy of sexuality usually decreases with age; now is the best time to do something about it. if you know who you are attracted to, regardless of their gender, why don't you give it a go? experience is the best learning tool. take the risk - you're worth it!