Here comes another low in my Saphris treatment! It works so well when it works. Today I am full of anxiety and on the edge of tears. I'm afraid to be alone. I live alone so that really helps. I was out with my son yesterday looking at cars. I need one and it seems important at times and other times I just don't care. So the no pleasure in things is kicking up too. I am so tired of this disease. It hurt my family, (my son) espescially and myself. If I didn't have my son I probably wouldn't be typing. He is 23 so not like I am caring for him. I have people who care but don't understand or don't know how to help. Hell I don't know how to help my damn self. If these dips keep happening with the saphris I will be at the maximum dose in no time. Then what? Nothing has ever worked so well so fast. I hate the lows, anxiety, and the whole hate to be alone thing (which makes the anxiety worse!). Guess I just needed to get my inner voice out, sorry for anyone else I might have braought down.