Hi, Happycheeks. Sometimes semantics (words) are so important. You say you don't like the word "sex." The movie clip you like shows people "making love." Have you considered no longer using the word "sex" and instead substituting the words "making love"? It seems that's what you want - LOVE (not sex). Have you asked your boyfriend if he loves you? Do you love him? I think you don't want just sex; you want love. And I think that deep down you want to make love. And that's what making love is about, expressing love for each other. I hope that "making love" with someone who loves you back appeals to you and that it's something you'd like to experience.