My t wants me to learn to 'feel for myself' for some of the things I experienced as a child. I have apparently fused the concept of 'self-empathy' with 'self pity' which I find unacceptable. One of my ideas growing up was that I had to be a 'trooper' and any self pity was out of the question. So, unable to find or feel the distinction between the two concepts, I freeze up. I know it will be a continuing topic on Monday...