I have a lot of problems that we haven't even gotten to yet and I think the biggest one is that I still hold back a lot in session. I measure my words so carefully that it is exhausting sometimes. Do you know I am holding back all the time? I hate that I feel like if I really let it all out you will think that I am a horrible person. Why did you ask last week if I had a drink when I was out to dinner? I can't get that question out of my head. I wish you would push me a bit harder. Sometimes I don't feel I'm getting anywhere in this therapy. Do you think I'm too fragile to do more? How do you determine the pace? When I really talk in session I end up leaving feeling like such a whiner. I am tired of the things I need to do being simple, but not easy. I want you to know I didn't always feel this way about myself.