One time I felt strong disapproval from T. She didn't say anything (I just felt it) and I wasn't even conscious of it at the time.
A couple of weeks later I said to her that I knew she was mad at me. She admitted it was true and it was because I was acting like a belligerent teenager, she said.
Was it right for her to say that to me? Isn't a T supposed to try to understand what my behavior meant and try to help me figure it out? Shouldn't she have asked, 'what's going on? Let's talk about it?" Instead, I felt it, we ignored it and moved on with other stuff.
I'm still having a hard time getting past this. This happened weeks ago and I brought it up to T just recently as a reason why I still can't trust her 100%. She admitted she made a mistake and said that she's human. But how can I relax when I think she might again judge me poorly by how I act?
By the way, what I had done was walk into session listening to my iPod and kept plugged in about 15 seconds longer to finish the song.
My feelings were at high gear at that time and I was trying to control them by listening to some music. I felt raw and I was so confused. But then, getting that 'vibe' from T just shut me down.
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