My T has told me that one of the things that everyone has to learn is that people can't take your power. They can throw stuff at you, but only you can give up your power. When you decide to feel "in trouble" you are letting that little kid you take over and handing over your power. The most important thing to remember is that when people throw stuff at you, you don't have to take it, you can say "no thanks". By letting her know how you felt you were allowing yourself to feel that way, but by continuing to walk in fear of that "getting into trouble" you're letting your little kid drive. You're an adult, you cannot "get into trouble" with your therapist. Yes you are raw and vulnerable but look at how much you've been through, you're a survivor, not a victim anymore.