Dear Dance,
I'm sorry you're being subjected to outside pressures from someone who is supposed to know better. You already have such loud voices in your head that are judging you that this must be all the more painful for you. I've never been in your position and don't know what to tell you from experience, but I wanted to reply so you knew I was thinking of you and feeling your pain. Hang tough and let some of the wiser voices here help you.