HI and welcome to PC - this is a great supportive place to be.

It seems to me that regardless of what was going on for your T then, it has impacted on you and created obstacles?

So in order to get rid of any blocks, sounds like you have to tell T how you are feeling - you don't know for sure what was going on for T, it may be that T was triggered, may be something completely different?

I am still getting my head round the process of therapy - but isn't it partly about practising being authentic, saying what is bothering us and then learning to deal with others reactions?

My T tells me not to worry about him - they get close supervision don't they?. So anything that may have bothered him he has a place to go to talk about it. I also think the only way T's develop and get experienced is by working with us and accepting feedback - it may be very useful for him to hear your experience of him.