hehe I missed you to! It definately isn't the same without you. What mood stabalizer have they put you on? My Pdoc has been doing the same with me, since Nov. I've been on trileptal to stabalize mood swings and stop my mind from racing away from me with all my destructive thoughts, but it never really did anything for me. I got up to 1200mg a day, and all it ever seemed to do is make me feel fuzzy in a totally bad way. He even added Abilify to help me with all the dissassociation I experience where I lose entire days at a time. But to no avail. In the hospital the Pdoc there took me off of everything but my effexor xr and added trezadone. blech. No one understands what's wrong with me. But I hope the mood stabalizer road works for you darling. I'll definately keep in touch with you sugardumplin : )

-kelly-