forest.......you thought if you found a place where people were in real bad shape you would feel better about yourself????????????..honey, until you take an honest look at yourself.YOU will be in much worse shape than any of us!......this community is just that...a community of caring folks who are more than willing to help and support others but until you are willing to help yourself......there is not much we can do to help you.......i wish you luck and i'm here if you need a hand........