oh god in went out 2nite to celebrate a frnds bdy. i knew i cudnt cope with goin out but i taut i wud do it ne any. i had the worst experience i freaked out in the night club. my frinds coped on which is gud but i completely ruined my friends bday cos she was 2 woried about me to enjoy her nite. i had to go go home my head was spinning and i felt like the place was closing in on me. i ruined her bdy altogether cos she was to worried bout me to enjoy her selfelf. i just felt feel so low at the minute i felt bad any way but this has just re-enforced that i can nvr be normal im so sick of trying to life a life that cant be lived