Here's an update of how things went. Shortly after I made the post on here about going back to work my FT nanny quit on the spot. Well, she decided just not to show up anymore, that was her way of quitting. This was within days of me starting work so I had to leave my job before it even started. I feel better about things, but it was supposed to give some extra income which I am sad to see go. I hope to think that now wasn't the right time for me and I would have had a lot of issues. Plus, my son was in the hospital for most of the week anyway. Back to the drawing board!