I know my past is my past but its more of the fact is that my past has lead me to this road. I try to do the whole thing about forgive and forget. I have forgiven who I needed to forgive because I don't want to go to hell because I have not forgiven someone its just that I'm at two roads and I'm stuck. I don't know why I'm so stuck but my unbelief in God might be more powerful right now. I have doubts in God and I need questions answered. I know some of my questions can't be answered and I'm okay with that but I'm just stuck in this whole thing called faith. I don't know if this makes sense to you or anyone else but I hope it does.