I get very socially awkward around any guy I have a crush on. I was at a club last night and the guy I like was there. I always wind up staring at him probably too much. He noticed last night and whispered in his friend's ear "that girl is staring at me....a lot" and it made me feel like the creepiest girl in the world. Like something out of the movies Swimfan or Fatal Attraction. I'm afraid to even talk to him or be in any social situation involving him ever again because I feel like he hates me. It's happened before with previous crushes. I've even had a guy straight up call me a creep and lie to me about having a girlfriend in a desperate attempt to get me out of his life. What was intimidating about last night was, I really wanted to go up and talk to him but other girls got to him first. They were barely dressed and made me feel like a loser because I was just wearing a nice dress and shoes with a little bit of a heel when they were in halters, tight skirts and stilettos. I feel like because I didnt look like any of those girls, he looked at me with disgust and joked about how ugly i was all night to his buddies. I honestly dont know how to talk to a guy i like without looking like a stalker or getting real paranoid that he might think im ugly or want to get a restraining order or something. By the way, this guy has no idea I have a crush on him because I found in the past if I let the guy know, he wont want anything to do with me.
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