T, today I could really do with asking if you're there, and hearing "I'm here". I could do with you telling me it was real, it still is, and I am still real, and you still love me. Things you willingly tell me every day, again and again if I need you to. Things I have on my phone and in cards and in recordings you made. The only thing missing is "I'm here". Because you're not. Ten days down. Ten days to go.