I'm kinda desperate. all my life i've liked women and still do. I'm 22 years old(male). ive had girlfriends, fell in love, etc etc. ive never questioned my sexuality. but 2 weeks ago i've been having thoughts in my mind and asking myself WHAT IF?...this has been on my mind 24/ 7 and it's bothering me and i feel frustrated for even questioning who I am. and I've even tried looking at same sex porn but it doesnt even turn me on, I just feel weird looking at it and it's very uncomfortable for me to even watch it. and whats bothering me is that since these thoughts have crossed my mind i keep telling myself that i should find every woman i see attractive and when I see a male I try to really feel something so I find an answer but I just feel nothing, I just feel confused and uncomfortable but the funny thing is I see chicks online and turn me on a lot online. I also wanna point out that these thoughts began when i was on the computer. I've never had any trouble with someone of the same sex in person like a lot of people have who say they get nervous or feel horny when they see someone of the same sex in person. I mean I suppose it's normal to admit or realize when another man is good looking right? Most of the time when I see someone who is good looking I say to myself I wish I looked like them but not necessarily that I like them, so maybe I've mixed up these feelings or something else, I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE!
I dont know what else to write, I never thought i'd be here writing about this situation. Hopefully some of you people can tell me what you think of my case and let me know what can I do. Thanks a lot!
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