Hi. You can try until when? There has to be a limit. If you're both suffering...it just seems like a futile gesture. Try being more gentle with him...and see what happens. See if some of that magic feeling comes back to YOU! I am not an expert but do understand some of what you are going thru as I have been there!
My children have broken my heart many times as they don't understand my mental and emotional issues. I have been hospitalized for Suicidal Ideation 5 timesin as many years. Ifeel shunned so I reach out to others and along the way find more answers for myself. Maybe that's how this works!? Every day is different from the day before..if but for a little bit. Live in this day.