My depression kicking back again ...lack of sleep and completely lose appetite and i make my self busy like hell and i keep smiling pretending like iam okay to everyone but the things is iam not okay ..i hate my bed coz in my room thats the time when i am completely alone and i cry alot and i hate that i dont want to cry ...i just dont want to feel anything ..i think by repressing my emotion finally i will became numb , right?

i hate time like this ......i hate the fact that depression has following me all my life and now it has became my shadow