OH! It's the, what if YOU did something wrong problem! Remember 6 weeks ago when I said you guys (but esp you sky) double-dog dared me to go say something hard to T? I felt -I- had done something wrong, almost fatally wrong. I had talked to my pdoc about my June rupture with T, and I had convinced myself that she was going to talk to her supervisors, and it was going to end up with my T getting disbarred and losing his retirement benefits which he was just on the verge of getting - except that I was completely wrong about his age, for one thing, the conspiracy theory was all in my head, and when I brought the topic (rupture) up, he said, "I told you before, that is completely yours to talk about to whomever you want to, as you need to."

THAT'S what you need to talk about, what YOU did wrong, not what SHE did wrong. The thing that makes YOU feel like hurling. That you killed her - common psych topic. But you might have to stay in therapy for another 30 years, unless you can move a little faster than I do!