The confusing thing is that my t has, from the start, known that i have dissociated child aspects. She has always tried to encourage me to let that part of me show, so we could work with it and heal the wounds. So it came as a surprise when she told me how basically (without saying the exact words), i shouldn't have the needs of a child since I'm an adult. It made me feel almost tricked or betrayed, in that she seemed to invite this side of me to relate with her, only to then start telling me she was too busy to always respond, and discourage my strong needs. She's worked with me on coping skills, which i use alot, although she doesn't seem to think i do it enough. Maybe the problem is that i just can't find the balance, and it is painful and humiliating for me to ask or show what i need, only to find out i shouldn't need it. Since i can't find the balance, it seems best to just try to rid myself of this child part that causes so much turmoil. But when i try to ignore it, it ends up grabbing my attention anyway, such as by breaking down in gut wrenching sobs for no reason.