I hate myself right now. I want to crawl into a hole and never come out. He has turned a new leaf over the last 2 months and is actually trying. So what do I do? We get into a tiny fight and I explode and, in the mean time, slam the door so hard I actually make a hole in the wall from the door knob.

I have no words. I feel so ashamed. How can I ever say anything about him blowing up over nothing? I actually left physical marks on the house. I have never done this before and have no idea what snapped in me the other day. I don't really know how to handle this. I really just hate myself right now and don't even want to look him in the eye. And he hasn't even said a word about it. He even tried to make me feel better by saying he has done it before - which is not true.

I have never been this disappointed and disgusted with myself.