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Aug 22, 2011, 10:39 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: My Thoughts
Posts: 9
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if people do read my stuff isorry ihavent posted anything in a really long time, igot the internet taken away from me for a little while. ireally hurrt somebody close to me (physically&Mentaly) ((but thats another story))
While iwas away, ihave been thinking that social anxiety has really taken away a big part of my personality, like idont know who ireally am.
Well iknow who iam, Im SkyHiigh, but idont know who SkyHiigh is.! It Feels like ihave soo many different personalitys, it feels like im 100 people walking in one body. 100 little voices telling me how to act. Easily changing who iam in a second, But iknow none of these personalitys are who ireally am. When im around people im never really who iwant to be. im scared to be. iwanna be liked by everybody.! IWanna be SkyyHiigh.!!! The skyhiigh thats in my head begging&&Screaming to come out.!! The skyhiigh that knows how to talk to people, thats cool, chillen, has her own style, && Importantly Dosent give a Shyt what people think. IWish ican replace my 100 personaliys with this one great personality.!! iknow thats who iam, But the only way to be skyhiigh is to smoke ((Pot)) **Im Not Ashamed that ismoke, thats one thing that ihonestly, really, truely dont care about what people think, Yees my mom does know. ** When ismoke it feels like all my personalitys just go away.! All the little thoughts and voices fade. It feels like iam one person, and that one person can finally fly. When im hiigh, thats when ifeel like im myself. ifeel Normal and not 100 people always changing when ifeel judge. Thats when ican say Im SkyHiigh, what you see is what you get, and ican care less what you think.
Cause Im Me... Im Sky when im hiigh, and thats my time to Flyy.!! So Lets Fly Skyhiigh.!! Lol, andThats how iget my name. )
but my point is iStill wanna be able to be skyhiigh without being hiigh. Cause lets face it, even though its nice, icant be a little pothead all my life.
Does Anyone know what imean.?? Can YOU be yourself without being high.?? Am ithe only one that cant.?? How do you get the little voices to shut up.?? ....Whats the meaning of life.?? ((Dont try to answer that.!!)) When you mulitply nine will the answer always be what your fingers tell you.??? Why dont iknow the answers to any of these questions.?? >
P.s if you dont understand how iget my name and you wanna know message me and i'll explain.)
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