Kae you guys..Not just the guys eveybody.!!!
Todae was the first day of school. im in hiighschool and ipromised myself that this year im going to make friends and have a really good time and dont take everything so serious but most impotant MAKE FRIENDS.!!!
im tired of being the one that nobodys know, iwanna be the one that Everybody knows.
Ialready pretty much like all my teachers, you can tell that their pretty layback on how things go. its juust the kidds im terrified of. icouldnt stop freaking out the whole daay. Iwanted to go up to people and talk to them Soo baad, ijust couldn't.! ihave to stop beiing such a *****, ineed to try to make conversation with these people or else im never gonna be happy. its just soo ****ing hard to make a good impression on somebody when all you do is think about the way your acting, but who im acting isnt my promblem riight now, the promblem is "What The **** am igonna saay.!!??"
This is the part that ireally get stuck on after iget through the process of convicing myself to talk to people. iNever know what the hell im going to say, After all the basics of course, when im trying to befriend them. Idont want there to be any silent moment to distract me to trigger the over thinking basiclly. My Sister says to ask question, But what do iask.?? idont want them to think that im liike creepy you know.?
Also another thing thats been on my mind what do isay after when somebody is done telling me liike a long story about what they did.?? liike say if iasked them what did you do this summer.?? Then they go on telling me about what they did Blaaah bllaaah blaah, then they stop talking expecting me to say something then when itry to open my mouth .....
Can you say Awkard. idont want them to think iwasn't listenin to them or that thier storys aren't intersenting.!! iJust get stuck my mind goes blank cause im thinking...A Thing that ireally need to stop doing.!! Gaaaah, >

ihate my Braiin.!!!!!
Any Suggestions on what to do in these situations.!?