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Originally Posted by tigergirl
that part sounds way weird to me also ..... other than that though wow! 
I'm so glad you went ...... i asked about the massage T's last week, and know you were thinking about it then, to read you've already taken the plunge and tried it is so exciting and that it went so well The fees side of it can get so .... complicated; we know what we need, what would help and yet balancing can be hard to manage. Somehow I hope you can get a mix of both T and massage in that is the right mix for you .... and maybe you can't tell T now about massage but one day it might feel ok to share about it  I'm excited for you |
Hi TG - thank-you for making that previous post, without it I may still be contemplating things - I have anxiety issues and I have learnt that unless I challenge them, they get worse. The more I think about something the more anxious I get and the more scarey bits I can invent in my head, so for me just doing it is helpful (not always easy to get myself to that place though).
Touch is hard for me and and lying with few clothes on a real challenge! But I reminded myself I was safe, that this was her job, that she was a massage "therapist" and would be used to dealing with people with issues. It wasn't easy, but I would go again and I think the more I went the easier and more beneficial it would be.
I have T today and may tell him - I'll see how brave I'm feeling. But on the other hand I tell myself this is my journey, I believe that ultimately there is a place in my head that knows what is best for me and it is up to me to decide whoi I want to help me.
Be good to hear whether you take the plunge and find one and about your experiences. Take care SD