It is quite common to hate one's self and to feel like a hypocrite. It only seems otherwise because you see inside yourself but you can only see the outside shell of everyone else. It takes constant effort to maintain the appearances you see on the outside of other people - who they are and what they are like. None of us was even responsible for creating the person we think we are. Keep in mind that we are all just doing the best we can with the material we have to work with, and this means you, too.