What strikes me SunAngel is that the pieces came to me like thunderbolts, bang, bang, bang, with long spaces between them, but still...And I guess it makes sense, if 'this' is mostly all I've known as 'that's me' (if even putting mostly is necessary), how could I have questioned things to such a great extent...My sister had always been the one with the issues not me...And my mum's advice always being to ignore anything bad...I guess I might benefit from some long-term therapy once I can afford it..

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