RS,
Why, thank you for asking!

Oh... things are, you know... confusing, as usual.

He and I have been getting along pretty great lately. We even have phone conversations about things other than our relationship. Those are so comforting. They are life like it used to be and like it's supposed to be. He's planning on coming back. He's been applying for jobs here and bought his plane ticket (he did buy the insurance so he can change it, though).

He knows I'm still working on making a decision. That bothers him a little since he's already decided he's willing to come back and give me another chance. I've told him it's not cause I don't love him, it's cause I want to be sure we have a chance at making it.

I've gotten through about seven chapters of Too Good To Leave, Too Bad to Stay. So far, it's telling me to stay. That's encouraging, but I haven't gotten to the chapter about "differences between you" or "betrayals and hurts". But it's a great book, well written, and it really helps to clarify all the concerns and hopes racing through my mind. She (the author) actually says that the pro-con list ("balance scale approach") is a bad idea, since it's like "putting puppies on a see-saw", nothing stays still long enough for you to properly consider it and some things belong on both sides. I told my counselor about that and he told me that that's probably true for most people but with a person who's mind is as analytical and methodical as mine is, it probably will work, to a degree anyway.

I guess I've mentioned that, in my heart, I absolutely want him to come back. I get excited when I think about seeing him again.

However, I've made decisions in the past based solely on my heart and they often don't work out so well. I want my head to have its fair say in this as well. My head is not so sure.

Gotta go to work. There's a ton more I could talk about but it'll have to wait.