For those of you who don't know, I had to quit my T after a year because he started making moves on me. I haven't spoken to him in a month now. I filed a complaint and got a new T.
Oddly, I really miss my old T because the transference was very strong and I thought I loved him. Still wonder if I do sometimes. I think about him a lot still. It's terrible. Just terrible.
I feel so betrayed and heartbroken. He told me he loved me and wanted to be with me. How could he just turn it off so fast like this?
I know, because it wasn't real to begin with. But, it still hurts like hell.
I don't like feeling so out of control and like such a wimp.
Of all the people to hurt me after I've been hurt so badly since I was a kid. My whole freaking life abused and and taken advantage of. And now the most trusted person in my life aside from my mother and husband does it to me again.
How much more am I expected to take? Seriously?
I am all out of love.