Raising a child with developmental problems is emotionally taxing. I'm so sorry for your struggles. (((BIG SUPPORTIVE MAMA HUG)))

May I ask why you had to leave your church? I suggest finding and attending a new church w/ a wonderful & supportive community. Also, find a support group in your area for parents raising children with special needs and disabilities. Try Meetup.com or someplace similar, or check with the local schools. Getting together with other parents who know your struggles will be very beneficial.