I can't seem to find the spot or post but I did see someone say "I am sorry for the long post" and that means " I never felt I was important enough to put myself out there to ask for help" and it also means "I never got the chance to learn that I am important and loved and safe when I DO try to express myself".

And that is a very important expression to look for whenever we ask for help or even when we make any effort to try to express ourselves. That is very important to recognize in ourselves when we try to make efforts to connect with others. Because what it means is that no one ever taught us how to express ourselves or we somehow grew up thinking we were never important.

And also when someone responds to that by saying, oh, no I liked hearing you talk, don't appologize, that means the person saying that he/she also knows how it feels "NOT HAVING RECEIVED THE PROPER NURTURING AND SENSE OF SELF VALUE".

So when we are taking steps to reach out and try find ways to get pass all the things in our past that hurt us and kept us from learning "HOW" to "RELATE" to others and express ourselves, we have to really look at what we say. And when we can finally express ourselves without appologizing or feeling we need to appologize that means we are finally gaining, "MORE SELF ESTEEM".

RAGE, what does that emotion mean? That is an important question to address.
I have seen it be an emotion that is very difficult to control, even in myself. That would be a good thread to start, Madisgram, can you find information on that emotion that describes what it means? My computer skills are lacking and I do not know how to cut and paste information yet, I keep messing it up. But I will learn eventually.

I have had RAGE come out in myself and I know it is often like stress where we have different buttons that get pushed (often triggers we are not aware of) and we have anxiety attacks. And I think RAGE is when we are addressed with a group of situations that push our boundaries and the next thing we know RAGE comes out and it really feels like some kind of strong entity jumps in our body and it is very hard to control.

I know that it is a part of having PTSD, but it also appears in other disorders. And I know that it is intertwined with anxiety. And it would be nice to know where that switch is so that I could find ways to keep it from getting switched on.

This is a very good thread Richardrahl and you now have not only good advice but those wonderful words, "SORRY YOU DONT KNOW, BUT YOU CAN LEARN", "YOUR NOT ALONE".

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