I've been working with her for less than six months, so it's a pretty new relationship. But in the short time that I've known her, she has proven herself to be open minded, authentic, honest and trust worthy with me. She has been there for me when I needed her, she gave me additional session whenever I was upset about something, she told me straight to my face that she wants to get close to me, and that she is hoping that I will be able to trust her and get close to her. She made me feel safe.

I was very anxious about telling her all that happened. I have told her before, in one of our very first sessions, about looking up former T online, driving by her house, etc. Her reactions to those stories was very open minded and accepting. She could understand why I did what I did. But I didn't know how she would deal with it when it is all directed at her. That was a real test for our relationship as far as I was concerned.

I wrote her a letter. I've written her before, when I wanted to bring up something that was difficult for me to talk about, so the concept is not new in our relationship. I wrote in the letter what happened, the feelings it evoked in me, and I cried for her help to try and better understand this behavior and help me stop it.

I was so anxious I had a hard time sleeping in the last two nights before session. My heart was pounding in my chest whenever I would think about this session. I dealt with it by reminding myself that so far she has been great, so there's a good reason to believe she will continue to be great. I also reminded myself that I won't be able to hide this from her, because I know what I did, and it will forever stand between us if I don't tell her. Since my goal in this relationship is to get as close as I can to her, I knew withholding such important aspect of myself would stand in our way of getting closer to each other. That was a price I wasn't willing to pay. I knew then that I had to take the risk and share it with her.

Thank god my instincts were right and she was as receptive as possible to it. God bless her heart .

Why are you asking? Do you have similar information you are contemplating on sharing with your T?