Well once again I stopped meds. This just seems like a never ending battle. I am so sick (literally) and tired of all the meds and just the bipolar thing in general. I hate the way I treat my husband when I get like this. I know he understands but I still hate it. Sometimes I think he deserves better than someone crazy and unstable like me. I have been up all night. I am freezing and sick to my stomach. I dont know why I stop my meds all the time. I know in my head that I need them and they will help but I just get so tired of taking them day in and day out.